The Beginning of New Chapters

The new chapter begun as I preparing myself to college life. It started at the end of my 12th grade, when I was demanded to decide what major to choose in college. The only thing I know back then was "I'm going with engineering departement" because my love for physics and create or modify things, but had not decide the exact major I want to be in. So, I searched as many informations as I can about the majors in engineering departement.

I was attracted with Physics Engineering, Civil Engineering and Mechanical Engineering, plus somehow... Psychology.

In National Selection based on report card score and other achievement, I applied to Physical Engineering, Institut Teknologi Sepuluh Nopember, but didn't pass. So I applied in next National selection based on written test. The major I applied are Faculty of Civil and Environment Engineering (ITB), Psychology (UNS) and Civil Engineering (UNS). I passed the test, I passed in Psychology major in UNS. Please note that the Psychology major in UNS is based on science, not social. Here was the irony begun

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I already consulted my mom if I apply to Psychology, would she be okay about that, and she said she would be, because it was up to me. But when the result came in, I could see disappointment in her eyes. I even still could remember it 'till now. So, I decided to take one more test that I have applied before. It was a test held by Diponegoro University, I chose Mechanical Engineering and Electrical Engineering. Well, the Electrical Engineering was my mom's desire, but I'd be okay if I went there, i guess.

The test result was few weeks after the test. In those weeks, I tried to accept the possible future I might have if i didn't pass this last test, which means I'd go with Psychology, and also tried to convince my mom that everything would be okay if I go there. My mom and I already have accepted it. Then the result come. I PASSED THE MECHANICAL ENGINEERING PROGRAM.

Instead of felt the relief, I felt that I was in the most confusing part of my life. You know, I already set my mind and my heart to go with Psychology for the rest of my life. I've decided what I was going to do there, the purpose of my life with Psychology as its base. That time was like a cold war between me, the other part of me, my best friends, and my family.

The heart of me was convinced to go with Psychology. Hoping it would help me fixing myself, help me understanding people.

The logical part of me was determined to go with engineering, because basically I think mostly like an engineer my whole life. You know, like to solve problems with methods, curious about how to make things done easier, more efficient, with the existing sources.

My best friends... well they all already accepted in engineering program. Almas in Architecture, Ricya in Physics Engineering. We have dreamt that we all in engineering program, so they persuaded me to go with Mechanical Engineering.

While my family........

My mom said it was up to me, but how she act was like doctrinizing me to go with engineering

My dad also said it was up to me, but somewhat so determined to make me go with Psychology.

My sister... she told me to go with Mechanical Engineering.

My brother.... he didn't even know what I applied for college, didn't know that I applied to Mechanical Engineering, because he's in German. I felt bad because it was the major he wanted to be in, I couldn't imagine if I go with this major, while he hasn't know if he would go with this major in German.

After days of consultation, consideration, and reminded by how disappointed my mom looks when I accepted in Psychology... hmmm I'd rather go with Mechanical Engineering.

Then, all new chapters begin. The chapters where I find moment of realization that all my life have led me here, where I meet amazing and kind people, where I feel the new meaning of love and family, where I start to believing that I can develop and grow to the best version of myself here, in Mechanical Engineering, Diponegoro University.